The Satellite That Broke Jupiter's Curse
- Janice Maniquis
- Mar 6, 2022
- 3 min read
Updated: Jul 29, 2022
Decades of waiting you finally arrive slowly orbiting around me checking out my hazy armor You come in strong seducing me to show you every detail You fly closer then farther then sideways then around my magnetic poles I fight with all my might to reject your piercing radars fearful that you'll leave as soon as you've gotten everything you wanted from me Your presence stir my gooey liquid hydrogen core Lightning and thunder and strong winds don't scare you as you lean closer and closer and closer to me undressing me with your brown eyes until I finally succumb and let you inside me completely removing my armor in front of you showing off my delicate details and my magnetic poles and my soft heart You keep your eyes on me even if your flight path takes you farther and farther and farther away from me and you come back peeking into what the sun does to my excited atmosphere the same hazy atmosphere you've been trying to pierce into Here's to you the satellite with the agenda who flies in and out of orbit piercing through my soul...
I can finally dance with Saturn because of you.
I'm obsessed with Jupiter. I've watched documentaries after documentaries about it as well as the journey that the satellite, Juno, has gone through so far. I've always thought that I will create poetry between their dance and I never realized that it takes a specific experience to make this come to life.
The Romans named the largest planet in our solar system Jupiter. In 2011, people at NASA launched a space probe to peer inside Jupiter and study it. They found it fitting to name this satellite Juno, the goddess that Jupiter married, who was the only one to lift the veil that he created to hide his mischiefs.
I've always compared myself internally to Jupiter: the bully of the bullies; a mysterious planet with immense gravity and thick layers of clouds that hides its chaotic energy. I idealize these principles inside of me. I always have my guard up; my heart is like a liquified metal and my brain is chaotic most of the time. I also defend the weak and fight bullies when I get the chance.
And so it's just natural that I gravitate towards this majestic Jovial planet. Its beauty is immense; I feel humbled to know that without Jupiter (and its dance with Saturn), there will be no existence on Earth. It's surrounded by cyclones and anticyclones and those chaos makes up its natural beauty when you look at it through a telescope.
My life, so far, has had its share of scars and traumatic events as well as grief and pain. I wear this around my neck most of the time although the deeper scars are nowhere to be found. A friend once told me that the energy they felt from me was of resilience and strength and it felt safe to be around me. My best friend says I am unassuming but I hide my deeper true self by deflecting anything that would make me feel. I learned from this and took another piece of advice from another friend who said, "it's better to feel something than to feel nothing at all."
And so it is. Someone came into my life who felt just like that space probe that orbits Jupiter; someone who tried to pierce through my outer layers to see what's inside of me. It didn't take long for me to feel vulnerable even if it scared me. After all, I won't feel anything if I don't open up, right? In the end, I realized that this person was just as heavily-guarded. But whatever the reason was for him to not open up, I'm in awe that this experience was the one ingredient I needed to create this beautiful poetry and I cannot express enough how grateful I was for him to fly by my space. His presence made me realize that I can overcome my trauma and remind myself that beyond every hurt, there's always healing. I can only hope that he figures out that happiness is a state of mind and one can never chase it; that it will effortlessly come to you once you figure out what matters most and orient your life around it.
It's been real, Juno. Saturn has arrived.
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